Someone mentioned to me today that I have a problem communicating 
what is on my mind.  I believe she said, "I think there is something big
 happening in your brain, but when it comes out, it's... blah." 
Oh
 man, was she correct!  Of course, I offered up an explanation that my 
brain moves too quickly for my mouth to keep up.  All joking aside, this
 is definitely something I've struggled with for years.  I often say 
things that are blunt without even meaning for them to sound that way.  
Example:
As my friend was walking toward me, I noticed that she didn't look happy.
Me: Are you okay? You look mad.
Her: Geez. I was just thinking.
My
 hyper-sensitivity to people's emotions and facial expressions added to 
the fact that I cannot tactfully express my concern comes together in a 
fiery ball of crapola.  Now, if you know me well, you know that I steer 
clear of country.  However, the other day I overheard a Reba McEntire 
song that stated, "What you're not saying is coming in loud and clear." It's the reverse for me. What I AM saying is not coming in loud and clear. Rather, it may be loud, but it's never clear. 
So, if you see me open my 
mouth, there is a good possibility that what comes spewing out is not 
meant to be rude or tacky.  I have genuine concern for people.
 
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